Friends or Classmates or Neither?

The whole thing started here and I hope that it will/can end here...

Actually I seriously don't know how the whole thing started. Maybe it started when I found out that you guys are actually reading my blog and I posted the post on the secret readers. The truth is I REALLY don't mind you guys reading my blog. It's a blog, so I guess everyone has the rights to search and read it. And of cos, this blog is for my FRIENDS and you guys are my FRIENDS. So I definitely welcome people to read it.

I think the affecting part come when you posted a post on your blog targetting at me. I'm admitting that I'm reading your blog and I've got nothing to hide about it. I treated you as a friend and I'm really hurt by what you say about me in your post. Maybe the person you're refering to it's not me. Maybe I'm too sensitive. Or maybe I'm not even considered as your friend.

I don't understand you just as well as you don't understand me. I actually always very scared of you cos I feel that the things you said at times can be very crude. But then, because I treat you as my friend. So I accept it as part of your character. But the crudeness in your post makes me wonder "Do you treat me as your friend too?" I'll never say such things to a person which I treat him as a friend. Maybe it's different for you cos you're a guy.

Maybe I'm not as open-minded as what you guys think. It bothers me when people start to discuss about my private life. The part of me which I seriously want to share with my close friends. Maybe it's my fault for posting it here, in my blog, allowing all of you to read it. Reading and knowing it is perfectly fine with me. BUT can you all stop trying to find out who the guy is? Anyway, the person is not someone from our class. So there's no point guessing. If you really want to know who that person is, you can just come and ask me directly. I'm just surprise that why are you guys so interested in the guy I like? Does it bring you any joy or happiness? Or it's because it can be the topic of gossip when you all are bored?

I'll still keep this address. I'm not sure if I feel comfortable enough to continue blogging. Maybe I should apologise if any of the posts make you uncomfortable or you are really disturbed by what I said. I can delete those posts away. Anyway, I won't blog any thing to do with my classmates here anymore.

I really hope this won't worsen this whole stupid issue. I also cannot understand why I'm so affected by this. Maybe I'm the only one being affected. Maybe this whole thing is just a stupid joke to all of you. Maybe I should not even bother to explain.

Ps: Just in case if you think that my msn nick is implying to one of you. It's seriously not!